ok jasmine, consider yourself warned. no more anti-china blog posts and no more complaining about the govt. lets just bury all our frustrations somewhere else where ppl can't see it or monitor it and can't arrest us for it. lets not end up like that silly man who wrote on facebook that he wanted to "burn" a minister and get arrested instead. sigh. good luck to him though. lets hope he just gets away with a warning. cause i don't think he really meant to disrupt the peace and staility of the nation-.-
sigh. its kinda pathetic how i can't voice out my frustration on my own blog. but again, i don't think its v worth getting arrested for complaining about stupid china ppl. no such thing as privacy on the internet. i'm sure if i locked my blog and made sure i was the only one who can read it somehow the govt will be able to hack through and see it too. so maybe a diary is a better option? i mean the only way they can see it is if they break through my house and find it right. ahah. not saying that won't happen, just saying that there is a significantly smaller chance of them finding out the existence of this diary and the contents of it. haha.
anw diary reminds me of vampire diaries! ahha. awesome awesome show:) step aside twilight saga, vampire diaries ftw!:) vampire diaries is more "realisitic" in a sense. (technically speaking vampires are not really realistic is any sense) and i prefer the plot of the story! twilight just revolves around the sappy romance of bella and edward. the only thing that keeps me watching twilight are the cute werewolves! ahah. they so cute when they are in their wolf form. like one giant puppy. ahah. i love the appears-to-be-evil-but-is-actually-good vampire brother! i realise i always prefer the villains in shows. i am just so skeptical i never believe in the good ppl. i find the heroes super AA like always trying to save the day and scolding the poor villain:( ahha.
I was flying 11:51
have been hibernating for about 2 weeks now, being an ultimate bum around, spending my days sleeping and eating and watching shows. and this super unhealthy lifestyle has made me sick:/all the junk i have consumed in the past 2 weeks have decided to go all out and destroy my poor defenseless throat:( and the enzymes in my body are all struggling to prevent denaturing from my fever:( and despite my desperate attempt to not let my body take the best of me, i ended up sleeping away about 18 hours of my day today. my back muscles are totally killing me. its like they have all gone limp:(
was watching tabletennis today, and singapore lost to china in the gold medal match. but i am super proud of the singapore paddler:) although she lost, but i think i would rather see a singaporean lose to a chinese than see a chinaporean win a chinese-.- i am more proud we won a silver in YOG than the gold we won in the world championship. i REALLY don't understand why singapore loves buying all these foreign talent. oh well the singaporean put up a good fight, so well done!:) was kinda bu shuang when i saw like prcs in jc uniforms cheering like mad waving their china flag. the thought that my parents are paying taxes so that the govt can spend millions of dollars every year to pay for the education of these ppl just annoy me so much. do they seriously think that these "foreign talent" are going to be willing to stay in singapore to contribute to OUR economy??? yea right. they are just merely using us as a stepping stone to get what they want. and i believe that secretly the chinese look down on us. ok. getting real politcal again. i think i must stop blogging about the whole china thing before i get into serious trouble. rahh
cheers to freedom of speech and expression.
hmmm i'm not going to make it out alive from uni am i?
I was flying 21:10
have spent the last 2 days watching s1 of "how i met your mother" and i think its a really interesting show! ahah. its like a comedy about this guy telling his children the story of how he met their mother. really funny and interesting! although i still dunno who the mother is yet... ahha.
hmm but it got me thinking that my life is so super boring:( like next time when i have kids, i wont have any interesting stories to tell them about my life. i am such a boring person with such a boring life. i havent really done anything super crazy or adventurous in my life. made me feel like the past 19 years of my life. and this is my last year as a teenager:( its like if my kids asked me "hey mum what did you use to do when you were a teenager?" i would be like "er.... i went to school? and i loved to hibernate in the holidays and watch dramas?" gosh what a boring mum i would be. but i guess life in singapore is pretty much the same for all... study, get good grades, get a good job... singaporeans are just so preoccupied with the standard of living that i feel many overlook QUALITY of life. i dunno. sometimes i wish i were born in some other country like america or australia or something. its like in the western countries ppl actually go all out to chase their dreams and do what they want to do with life. but in asian countries you see less of that. but of course i cant really imagine myself really being an american girl. life is just so unpredictable there. and singapore is so... stable and peaceful. oh wells maybe i am just making excuses for my lack of initiative to seek craziness and adventure in life. you cant get both stability and adventure in life. gotta give up one. but i dunno if i'm ready to give up my stabe life to seek adventure yet:/
hmmm maybe uni will be where my adventure begins?
I was flying 00:15
STEP UP 3 WAS AWESOME!!!
kudos to the choreographer man. AMAZING! loved the plot for this one. super cool dancers and dance routines. (and the main actor and actress got super hot bod!)
go watch go watch!:)
I was flying 23:57
haha i avoided gaga-ing about the fight quest guy doug anderson during my national day post, but i think i am just fated to blog about this! ahah. was watching fight quest and it just refreshed my enthusiasm!:)
right. i think he is super awesome because he is a true warrior with his never say die spirit! and i love that he was a soldier in the iraq war! was watching this youtube interview and he was saying how he loved the adreneline of being shot at-.- found it a bit weird but cute at the same time. lol. and i also read that he is doing some volunteering for some civic organisations. and he loves playing with his nieces and nephews and enjoys drawing and painting! so sweet right! and i am super in love with the tattoo across his chest! (plus his fab hot bod hee). i think its pretty cool and artistic:) my mum was just like "omg pls don run away to america and marry a guy with a tattoo and tattoo yourself too". lol. i think its kinda impossible at the moment, but i mean who knows! ahha. i think americans generally have nice voices. oh well at least he does! ahha. ok i am just hua-chi-ing. heee. but seriously, besides the fact that i find fighters charismatic, i think they make good bfs cause you will definitely feel protected and have a sense of security! ok. i think i should stop here cause i am sounding really hua chi now-.- plus he alr has a really pretty gf! lol.
but i'm super sad they are not planning to do a season 2:( its such a great show! its like you get to see the diff cultures and martial arts of diff countries. and i'm not just saying this cause of my current tv crush (but again the show would prob suck without him ahha) i like watching this kind of shows! i think martial arts is really interesting. (but i suck at it:/) i think its so lame for ppl to complain about the show being too violent when its clearly called FIGHT quest-.- its educational ok! better than WWE-.-
dear friends, pls go watch fight quest and i believe you will understand why your friend here is so crazy over him. ahha.
I was flying 15:57
good morning world:) yes its 2pm in the afternoon and jasmine has just opened her eyes to see the world today. ahha. she was happily lala-ing in dreamland for about 15 hours till she felt that her back was aching from too much sleep haah.
have just been slacking and eating and watching tv the whole day. living the life of a bum. ahha. i love watching YOG! so exciting. ahha. and i am really glad that team singapore is really SINGAPORE this time. i really wasnt very proud when the table tennis team won the world championships. i mean the entire team is from china. including the coach-.- i really don understand the point of buying athletes from other countries but ok i shant talk about this or its going to turn out real political again. ahha. but i was like super duper proud when a SINGAPOREAN won a medal for singapore!!! born and bred and raised in singapore. a true singaporean!:) GO TEAM SINGAPORE!:))) come on, prove to the world that we dont need foreign talents to win medals for us!.
sent zhanni off at the airport yesterday morn with sarena. she should have reached by now. 25 hour plane ride. gosh. all the best:) take care!
ok. shall enjoy my maggi mee while watching tkd yog. bye!:)
I was flying 14:49
the YOG opening ceremony was..... like national day parade. ahah. its totally national day parade style. which i thought wasnt v nice... i dunno i felt it was a bit lame? like i get the whole young and youth vibe and all, but i felt some performances were really no link to YOG and it just appeared to be v immature for some parts. its like YOG is such an international event... i jsut felt it lacked a little sophisticatedness??? oh well at least the fireworks was great! and the flame and the cauldron was AWESOME!:) well done on that one:) but the thing that really got me laughing was the blur sotong atheletes who didnt know where to go! lol. so malu la. half of them walked the wrong way-.- i bet russia must be laughing at us now. ahah.
ok but you gotta give kudos to singapore for trying so hard and working so hard. afterall, we are the FIRST to do it! i shall be less critical of the flaws and be more appreciative of the amazing parts:) (so zen-ish ahha)
GO TEAM SINGAPORE (only if you are singaporean)
I was flying 23:42
wheee watching national day parade now!:) ok not really. more like listening to national day parade. ahah. national day parade is getting so routine. nothing new. and i think instead of playing the same old ethnic songs they should play the nat day songs from previous years! that would be much nicer to sing to:) i was just really -.- when the SAF men came out. seriously. we are paying taxes for our army men to be dressed in red costumes to perform??? ahha. i pity them though. can just imagine how unwilling they were. this year's parade was like not v good i felt... ok although most parts i was hearing it, but i glanced up occassionally! haha. hopefully YOG opening will be much better. i think they prob just diverted more resources there.
shit i am horrible. i was like so cannot be bothered about nat day parade and continued playing my bejeweled and blogging but when IP MAN showed, my lappie just went into hibernation mode-.- ahaha. but not my fault. IP MAN ROCKS!!! ahha. i wanna marry a man like IP MAN. so brave and good sense of morals. i dunno i just find men who can fight v charismatic. like i currently have this huge crush on one of the host of fight quest doug anderson. i think he is so awesome!
(initially i typed like one whole para gaga-ing about doug anderson but i deleted it cause this is supposed to be about national day... ahha. will gaga about doug in another post!)
right. national day. i love singapore! ahah. i really do! thats why i am so against the china ppl coming over and diluting our culture and just spamming the country with bad B.O., their boistorous and annoying voice and their lack of awareness that singapore is actually a country where you HAVE TO ABIDE BY THE LAW-.- and i really believe that this is one of the reasons why singaporeans are like keen to migrate now. cause there is really a lack of sense of identity. its like the effort to differentiate singaporeans from chinaporeans is not really working out i think. SOOO many of them are PRs now. and honestly in singapore, PRs and citizens are pretty much the same. they get the same benefits and all. only real difference is their IC is blue and ours pink?
i was just quite annoyed hearing the national day rally. its like the govt is saying "oh we understand your concerns about them... but pls welcome them with a open heart. btw, we are going to open our gates to allow another dunno how many hundred thousand flood in. hooray singapore!" was reading the yahoo comments and was quite entertained. some were like "govt is asking us to open our hearts to foreigners... why not they open their hearts to the opposition party!" ahah. and there was another one that was like "since we need so much foreign TALENT, why not we invite foreign politicians to come take over the govt?" lol well although i don think we should let foreigners run the country, but i must agree they are certainly more talented than the ppl who serve me my overly sweet bubble tea at sweet talk and erm those at geylang...
i just feel the govt is like overly focused on economic growth many a times that we are really losing the singapore feel. i mean i get it, we need more ppl increase our population and more labour in the workforce. but is it really worth going that far to be a rich and successful country economically but so poor in national spirit and stuff? i mean given our size we are NEVER going to become an economic powerhouse like the US or Japan. plus the youths are getting more and more apethetic towards politics. one day, i believe, they will have no choice but to allow PRs to go into politics, and to me, thats no different than letting a foreigner run the country. and maybe in the future we will be like a colony of china or something. oh god i hope i don live to see that day.
gosh this has turned out to be a damn political post! but singapore has freedom of speech right? *bites lips* ok but i really still love singapore! i just hope we find a way to gain back our national identity soon enough before our population hits like 10 million but its 4 million singaporeans and 6 million foreigners-.-
I was flying 20:07
last day of work at SGH today!!! was feeling super happy but a little sad at the same time. happy to finally get my rest but a bit sad to leave my colleagues... haha i rmb initially i was just like really quiet and dao... then i got to know the colleagues and i think they are a really awesome group of ppl. ahah. i felt like the baby of the office, cause i was the youngest there. and all the other aunties really took care of me! like they would ALWAYS buy food for us like when they went overseas, or just like when they buy something they will just buy more for us. and towards the end of my job, this colleague of mine was so sweet she bought breakfast for me every morning! initially it was just "try this curry puff! its v nice and crispy" then there was a hotdog roll, nasi lemak, and this morning, MACDONALDS BREAKFAST. super nice right! i think i put on weight working. ahha. everyday sit there eat junk food!:) i brought my ah ma's signature homemade pineapple tarts for them! was really glad they liked it:) they were really nice and kind to me! ahah someone bought a cake and they were all like secretly hiding in the pantry to not let the big boss find out. and the gift they gave me was just.... i was really shocked. i wonder if i even deserved such kindness la. but oh wells, it was an awesome LAST DAY OF WORK, and i will always rmb these awesome colleagues!!
i think out of the jobs that i have had, this was by far my favourite one!:) teaching was kinda fun cause of the students i guess and i think i learnt a lot there... but its not really my thing this teaching thingo. although this job can get really boring at times, and the pay is quite shitty, i had awesome colleagues and interesting experiences that made it all work out in the end:) i figured that i can be a pretty good receptionist. or customer service person. ahah. my colleagues say i sound really polite over the phone! ahha. although i hate the never ending phone calls, but at least i found something i am "good" at. oh wells, too bad. the next time you call SGH admissions office, you won't get to hear my sweet voice anymore! ahahha.
actually i think i prefer working than slacking. i just can;t stand not having anything to do at all. i mean a few days of slacking is great... can hibernate, get some rest... but like 3 weeks is a little bit long for me. ahha. i ALMOST wanted to extend my contract, but i decided i needed to let myself rest and get er... ready for school. yea. haha my ultimate excuse.
shall try to see if i can still squeeze myself in to volunteer for YOG or something. ahaha. i think i am just born a workaholic.
thank you AO staff!:) love you guys!
I was flying 23:49
everyone has different paths, different fates, different destinies.
don't be jealous; there is no need to. everyone has something that belongs to them. although at the moment life may seem bleak and you still feel the sting of disappointment, be patient and open to new things and you will realise why god has led you to this path. jealousy poisons a person as it causes one to be blind to all good things and only focus on the bad; it causes ppl to unleash the evil thoughts hidden in their minds.
accept your fate, and make the best out of it. everything happens for a reason.
Que sera, sera..... What will be, will be.....
I was flying 20:10
ok this was supposed to be a really deep and thoughtful post, but my train of thought has been disrupted by the frequent ringing of phone from this other dept and the sound of phone conversations. i can hear BOTH ends of the conversation cause this other dept ppl are so CONSIDERATE to put their phone on speaker mode. seriously, i don't need to hear you argue with the nurses. i have my own fair share of that thanks.
ok. chill. breathe...... 3 more days. ok i shall try to go back to my ultimate zen-ish thoughtful deep mode... ok let me blast my mp3 first. haha its ironic cause the song i'm listening to now is telephone by lady gaga and the chorus goes
Stop callin', stop callin', I don't wanna think anymore!
I left my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin', stop callin', I don't wanna talk anymore!
I left my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh I'm busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh Stop telephonin' me!
haha right. ok back to zen mode. digressed too much liao. ok but after 4 hours, i have completely forgotten what i wanted to blog about. ahha. i think its something about not knowing what my aspirations are. oh yea right. cause i am supposed to write a short essay about my aspirations for the future for that ntu thingo. ahha. something tells me i am going to start writing this only on the day before the deadline... ahah. typical jasmine. yea but i think its kind of pathetic to not know what your aspirations for the future are??? hmmm honestly i can't really see myself doing anything significant in the next few years... i have zero clue about school except that it starts on the 30 aug (right?). and i am getting jealous looking at all the photos of ppl going for uni orientation camp. but so far i havent seen any ntu ones.... sigh. its like ntu is a really really dead place... but ok i shall try my best to hype myself up for school! gogogo!:)
I was flying 08:03
wa. this nurse totally spoilt my mood for the day. make my blood pressure rise so early in the morning. keep insisting on her way. and half the time i didnt even know what she talkign about. we using 2 different systems la. thanks to her i needed to spend 1.45 to buy my ice lemon tea to calm myself down. and cause my mood is spoilt the ice lemon tea doesnt taste as nice as it is supposed to be. rahh.
and my computer is so damn laggy today. i am like blogging while the system is lagging-.- rahhhh. and if today is going to be as crazy busy as yesterday, i think i may just explode. i may jsut smash the phone altogether. then no more phone calls. yay!
ok i must chill. breathe in, breathe out. only 4 more days to go.
take a sip of my ice lemon tea, bite into my crispy curry puff that my nice colleague bought for me, listen to my newly illegally downloaded songs and just CHILLLLLLLLLLLLL.
I was flying 08:57
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Thursday, 26 August 2010