Sunday, 22 April 2007

dear lord, please watch over my grandma, let her have a safe trip there. let her rest well. please bring her back safely to us.

i will miss you dearly.

Saturday, 21 April 2007

ok tomm my grandma is going to shanghai to look after my aunt who is about to give birth soon. i am going to miss her like shit. i dunno why, but everytime a family member is going overseas alone, i cant help but worry. in the afternoon we had dim sum at this restaurant at goodwoodpark hotel. quite yummy:) tonight we are eating again.we are supposed to be celebrating mothers day and my grandma's birthday all at once.

i feel super sad, cause my grandma is going for really long this time. she said she will come back with my aunt in like aug or sep or something. THATS LIKE 3-4 MONTHS!!!!! i have never been away from my grandma for so long before in my whole entire life! i think the longest was when i went to japan and taht was 3 WEEKS. i feel really bad because i know its selfish of me to want my grandma to stay, but i cant help it. i will not only miss her cooking, but more so i will miss HER. i was so silly i dunno why but i started feeling emo after the dimsum meal and i teared. like in public. i just faked like something went into my eye so i kept rubbing. on the car i closed my eyes and the tears just kept flowing. my cousin asked why i was crying and i faked taht it was the eye irritation again. omg. i so wanna go send her off tomm, but i am surely going to cry. rahh. and this time i cant fake the eye thing anmore cause i will be like crying like shit. i am lke crying as i am blogging.

my grandma is just like the nicest person in the whole world. she is the closest thing to me on earth. even closer than my mum and dad. i spend so much time with her and i have been living with her since i was born. she was the one who brought me up. omg. i am so silly. i wanna take a picture with her before she goes but i dunno how to ask her. i scared i get too emo and start crying. i am wetting my whole keyboard. stupid tears.

the next few months is going to be hell.

can you please please don go for that long??? like can you come back earlier? please....

i love you ah ma!!! i will miss you!!!! take care!!

I was flying 17:18

Friday, 20 April 2007

rahh. had some stomach problems yest. whatever i eat will come out either in poop or vomit. gross but ya. but now ok le. so yay!!! went back after extra lessons(so sad i missed CO) and slept and slept and slept...... much better today:)

anw, i think i am going to die for my A math diff CT. ok. not think. i am SURE. rahh whats new. but it kinda sucks. to know like i keep failing and flunking. and i was hoping my term 2 results would be better. FAT HOPE. sigh.

oh anw String Orchestra got a GWH for SYF today. congrats! actually when i heard the news i felt like quite "urgh". not because i don wan them to get, but as in they were saying its the first in st nicks, and i was thinking taht could have been us. i really do feel happy for them, but i just couldnt help but feel kind jealous and pek cek. that could have been us. oh wells. i promised myself not to think about it again, but i cant help it. stupid me. rahh. congrats again!

jas pang, odd and i went for CIP today. they were so nice. they let us go even when we told them only today. haha. but i am really super tired after that. but the kids there are so cute!!!:) there was this little biy playing pee-ka-boo with me. haha.

no test next week!!!:)

I was flying 21:06

Wednesday, 18 April 2007

YAY!!! WE WON DEBATE!!!

haha. our class went up against 4faith for debate today and we won!!! so happy for them.:) so many ppl from our class went down to support. dunno who said 4faith had almost the whole class going down but in the end there wasnt a single soul... haha. 4 faith were like damn cocky. they were very confident they would win us. then marianne said jana said she was not a good speaker. like wth. i couldnt stand that smug look on their faces. bleah.

anw, i think they did really well!:) they made a lot more sense than the proposition. the topic was "SINGAPORE TELEVISION DOES LITTLE TO ENHANCE OUR SENSE OF IDENTITY" and we were the opp. they kept repeating the points that we rebutted. they clearly did not understand us. rahh. and they damn attitude. kept rolling their eyes when our class ppl were speaking. rahh. whatever. WE WON!!! haha:) marianne was a super super funny speaker. she was super agitated and her points were all damn suan the other team. but she is good la. hah. i think she was so pissed jana said she wasnt good so she is out to prove them wrong now. haha.

oh, not only did we win, MONICA ALSO WON BEST SPEAKER!!!! yay for mons!!!!:) i am so proud of her. she was really stressed this morning during PE. poor her. she has so much to do. she has her chinese debate too. but she managed to do an excellent job!!! yay!!!
HEY DARLING DON'T WORRY K!!! WE WILL ALL BE HERE FOR YOU!!!! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!! <3!!!

I was flying 17:46

Tuesday, 17 April 2007

BACK TO CO!!! haha. yay we have 2 new juniors!!!(stolen from zhong ruan) xin ling and yu ting. haha. at first i thought we would be juniorless besides du xiao fei but yay!!! haha. its quite cool. so fast 4 years have passed and we will be stepping down soon. it was like just a few months ago i started my job as secretary, and now.... sigh. while teaching the sec 1s, i keep thinking of me and hui min when we were sec 1.... ahha. we got into so much trouble la. but today huo was very nice to me. she kept "joking" around. haha. i didnt even get the joke. hahaha.

anw, e learning is so not fun. so much stuff to do online. sigh.

I was flying 23:11

Monday, 16 April 2007

omg. my table partner is CRAAAZZZZYYY. haha. something is wrong with xue ting these days. she keeps laughing non stop for no reason!!!!! haha. super zi high.

anw, today we had prize presentation for some completed events for sports day. green house was like sian diao. cause we hardly got to cheer cause our house didnt win much. oh wells. it was relly boring. jing ying even fell asleep la. hhaha. like taht wasnt bad enough. a bit that stupid yang hui chun is like so urgh. (shall refer to her as BBQ-b***hy bimbo queen, her name shoudnt be on my blog. pukes.) she just keeps yelling at us in her super screechy voice which no one can stand, telling us to cheer louder blah blah, while she herself is like not cheering too. BBQ is like one of the most i-cannot-stand-ppl in the world. seriously i dont even know why the hell she is house cap. poor green house. we this year like shit la. gahh. other house captains are like so good. like wang ling, diana and aby. esp aby. she leads blue house like damn well. i was so hoping i was part of blue house today. not because they win lots of stuff, but they have the house spirit thingy and a nice house cap. rahh. and BBQ just pisses me off. she is not only not fit to be house cap, i don even think she should be in mexco. dunno why she is like in mexco. AND. TODAY SHE NOT ONLY PISSED ME OFF, SHE PISSED MY FRIEND OFF!!! rahh. no one messes with my friends unless they wanna die....
(ok that may be a little crazy, but ya. my friends rock k. just G.A.D.)

but i will still cheer damn loudly for green house this year. cause its my last year and i shouldnt ruin it becaus of that BBQ.
GO GREEN!!!!

I was flying 16:39

Sunday, 15 April 2007

THE LAST SAMURAI.
omg damn nice this show. i think japanese have a damn cool history. i wanna be a samurai too!!! haha. kidding.

lay peng just qi si wo. she ask me help her buy 2 jubilate tix. FOR MEOW MEOW HIGH CO PPL! wa lau. i thought they damn cocky one? why need to go watch other co??? i thought they call us loser still come watch. bleah. stupid cats.

I was flying 22:03

I FINISHED READING NEW MOON!!!!

oh my god. super duper nice. once you start, you cant stop!!! haha. i started last night and spent like another 3 hours plus finishing it today!!! omg i love edward cullen!!! i think he is like the nicest vampire in the world!!! haha.

ok now i am in trouble cause i have lots of work uncompleted.

I was flying 16:57

Saturday, 14 April 2007

went to meet wen shin to sigh up for TAEKWONDO today!!! haha. we were so excited. and the auntie who helped us sign up was rather friendly too. we realised out classmates are all small kids. haha. oh wells. i cant wait for the lessons to begin!!! we going for the 1.30-3 one cause the others had many many ppl. we plan to study first, go for lunch then go for lessons!!! hahaa. i suddenly feel that my life is so CHONG SHI.:)

we also went to support xiao wei for her campus superstar 3rd round audition since we were there. it was all HUA HUI ppl la. but they are super nice and funny ppl. ahaha. super ZI HIGH. i think we attracted the MOST ATTENTION again. its just so typical of st nicks ppl. haha. we were dancing and singing loudly while waiting for the results. me and wen shin had fun "dancing" with the poster thingy. haha. we used it to hide our faces when the camera came. haha. there was this group of very extra guys. they like tried to attract a lot of attention by forming one big group and hugging when they were announcing results. there was this RI guy especially. he hugged everyone when he got in. so extra. haha. oh i also saw jing ying's buddy. he was in the extra group. i heard he didnt sing well. haha. anw, they said the girls were all much better than the guys.

OH then there was this very cute little boy!!! he is like 13 and super small, super cute. everyone calls him xiao di di. haha. but he sings damn well!!! he sounds exactly like JJ lin. haha. but he is really good. everyone was cheering for him like crazy. esp when he got in. haha. i will support you XIAO DI DI!!!

sadly, xiao wei didnt get in. but she seems qute ok. i thin the hua hui ppl very nice to give her such support. oh wells, we all had fun. and i think she really did well. same goes to lynn la. i think for ppl from our school, even if you dont win, we already treat you like a superstar!!! haah. <3

I was flying 22:11

Friday, 13 April 2007

funny funny day today. haha. xue ting practically laughed throughout english lesson. till now, mindy, kang ning and i still dunno why she was laughing. she laugh till she cried like literally tears flowing la!!! can you imagine how ZI HIGH she was?!?!?!? haha. we talked like about stuff today. we were in the toilet talking for like 15 mins then we went to the balcony to talk some more. we were sharing our "personal experiences" with each other. quite interesting. haha.:) XUE TING IS CRAZY!!!! haha. we were also laughing cause mr nunn was like sticking his butt out to us. haha. he was bending down talking to this group and his butt was like facing me!!! haha. so gross.

we had PMB meeting about SLC. quite cool huh we starting a pri sch one. and plus its an ALL GIRLS SLC!!! haha. so fun. and yay we not organising with meow high already. haha. anw, during the meeting mr wong was like talking about our attire and discipline, esp the SOP if you didnt bring your tie or badge blah blah. and guess what??? our darling vice-head prefect JEAN TOH was there, without a name tag nor prefect badge. wow. like WHAT A "GREAT" ROLE MODEL. i dont have anything against her personally, but i feel taht she is not living up to her post. she is even worse attired than some other students la. and she has like stuff on her shoes and safety pin on her belt?!?!?! i know no one is perfect. but she doesnt even meet the basic requirement la! i don even know why she was nominated to run for head prefect. plus she and her cilque are always the last ppl to leave her canteen. like huh. i am not trying to be mean, but i feel taht before you tell others to do something, you should do it yourself first. so i dont think she has the right to tell ppl to like button up their collar or correct their attire when she herslef isnt properly attired. there are other EXCO members and prefects who are like that too. you cant blame the students for not listening if we oursleves cant even do it la. AND mr wong was like talking to her and he didnt say a single thing. and he keeps telling us he is not pleased with our performance. PLEASE LA, START WITH YOUR EXCO CAN. ok not all. most are ok. but some are just like, ______. rahh. ok i dunno why i am so pissed too.

I was flying 22:01

Thursday, 12 April 2007

SEC 1 ORIENTATION
yay we finally got to have our sec 1 orientation!!! its like super late, but at leat we get to have it la. hah. i didnt get to play but it was quite nice i think. i was like helping out with the food comm cause it was really quite luan. we had so little food. cause so many ppl either ponn or didnt bring. sigh. anw, we made a last minute decision to get pizza cause it was really pathetic. si en was our saviour cause she withdrew money and paid first. haha. hui min and i looked like her GF buying stuff and she was paying. haha. she didnt know how to draw money la!!! haha.

while waiting, i talked to yunjie and sara. long time never talk to them le. quite fun. talked till like 5 plus. haha. then we went to the new AVA to listen to our SYF songs. many ppl started crying again as mr yeo and liu bin started sayin how good we were on that day and during the songs. sigh. anw, THE COMM FINALLY INTRODUCED OURSLEVES TO THE SEC 1s!!! haha. its like 5 plus weeks to hand over la. but oh wells. haha. the introduction of the 2 jasmines were quite funny:)

then came THE FOOD. yum yum. the pizza was like cleared within minutes. quite scary. the chocolate fondue was YUMMY!!! esp with marshmellows!!! we had so much fun eating away in a super UNGLAM manner. haha.

WELCOME TO SNCO SEC 1s!!!:)

E GEOG LESSON
ms lai didnt come today and we were like rejoicing. BUT TAN SHU WEI CAME!!! omg. she was so super scary. everyone was like scurrying to class and for once, paying attention during e geog. haha. as in like i dunno what in the world ms lai does during lesson, so for me, this is like one of the first DECENT e geog lessons we had. although tan shu wei is scary, but i think she is quite a good teacher. as in she knows how to teach and all, and i finally learn something during geog!!! but still, she is really SCARY. you should have seen the look on everyone's faces. haha. super scared look. :/

anyone wanna go for jubilate???

I was flying 22:03

Wednesday, 11 April 2007

haha we scared ourselves today. we heard some weird rumour about us having prom night with meow meow high. then we all freaked out. cause its so gonna ruin our prom night. means we cant be unglam and do whatever we want!!! many ppl heard the rumour too. they say what cat high principal already told them blah blah.

during math, we asked mr wong whetherit was true and the reply was damn funny.

us: mr wong, is it true we are having prom night with cat high?!?! we don't want!!!

mr wong: who in the right mind would want to have a combined graduation night with cat high? even if we were to have a combined, why would it be with them?

us: haha. but we heard rumours about it!!! they even said the principal told them le!!!

mr wong: please, its a four year old rumour. aiya must be those boys who started it.

hahahahhha. mr wong's reply was damn funny. i guess he feels the same way about cat high as us. haha. yay. so i guess its just a rumour. phew. and i think mr wong is quite nice la. noat as mean as i thought. we were late for lessons from PE(5 rounds) but he still let us off early for recess. and after recess, he gave us a 5 minute power nap!!! haha.

CHEM TEST CHEM TEST!!!

I was flying 19:06

Tuesday, 10 April 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIU QI, KANG NING & YUNJIE!!!

haha. i went presents shopping yesterday with the third lang ppl at J8 and i almost went BROKE. wahh. we bought a popular book voucher for kang ning, cause she doent want soft toys, food, books, anything that doesnt last. haha. so practical huh. and i got yunjie this really cute froggy dustbin thingy. hahah. i wrote this super nonsense letter too. as for xiu qi, we got her this lamb soft toy which was super cute too. ahaha. and we bought this cute little cake with a mouse on it for xiu qi and kang ning.

it was a rather boring day. had the dreaded PHYSICS SPA. i think i screwed it up. rahh. i hate SPA. some rubbish thingy the MOE has to come up with. anw, i think the POWER NAP thingy that mr wong told us about really works. hha. ms praveena let us sleep for 5 minutes and after the nap i felt must more awake. haha.

we had this 3 hour comm meeting today about hand over stuff and some others. i am super looking forward to handover, but i think its so fast!!! and its going to be so sad.:( we wanted an interaction, but we dunno who. we were considering HCI, but its like we had interaction with them b4, plus they have their MAF thingy so we were considering meow high. although they are cocky and we don really like them or whatever, but they are good la. but no confirm whether we really doing. may not have the time. but sounds fun though. haha.

so many things to do, so little time.

I was flying 19:29

Saturday, 7 April 2007

lalala. i am in a rather good mood these days.:) i am just really happy taht i am in such an awesome cca! this syf has really bonded us. SNCO ROX!!!

today has been qute a slack day. like yesterday. i spent yesterday playing web sudoku and almost killed myself with the EVIL puzzles. haha. really very hard le!!! spent 20 plus minutes on one. haha. so lousy. the weather is so nice to sleep... haha. zzzzzzzzzz.

oh my parents want me to re take my piano. but i dont feel like le. as in like whats the point of getting the cert? not like i want to be a piano teacher or something. and plus i really really am sick and tired of playing piano for the sake of exams. i wanna play for leisure. stress free.... argh. i will just have to drag as long as i can. o levels finish then i shall consider.

jas pang and i were pretty much smsing nonsense this morn. ahha. we were talking about throwing rotten eggs at gross ppl. haha. and WE ARE GOING TO GO HCJC TGT!!!! yay:) i think i would wanna join like canoeing or taekwondo in jc. and join the student council too!!!! i think its so fun:) i don wanna join HCCO cause it will be like hwa chong+nanyang ppl. the only co i will ever be in will be SNCO!!! haha.

lalla. slacking away....

I was flying 15:13

Thursday, 5 April 2007

haha. i feel so motivated by everyone. its so nice to see the whole co so united!!! we are all acting like we got GWH. all our msn nick is so cheerful!!! so touching to see that. and i heard cat high is getting damn cocky now esp when hci didnt get GWH too. whatever. they can never compete with st nicks. haha. we are simply supercalifagilisticexpialidocious!!!! (i think might have spelt wrong)

i am so so proud to be part of SNCO!!! its the best thing that ever happened to me!!!

I LOVE SNCO!!! WE ROCK!!!

I was flying 22:18

ok, no more tears of sadness. but TEARS OF JOY. i gotten over it. i am so so so proud of snco. i think we really are a GWH co not only in terms of playing but also the attitude. although we did not get recognised, but who cares!!! we know we are GREAT. SNCO, FEEL PROUD OF YOURSELVES!!! tell people proudly you are from SNCO!!!

si en sent me the dong bei feng recording. i was touched to tears. it was really PHENOMENAL. it was the nicest, most majestic co song i ever heard. in there, i felt the heart and soul of every single co member. we did it. we touched ourselves, and the audience. the results are superficial. we are a GWH co. i don care what the judges say. SNCO WILL ALWAYS BE A GWH CO IN MY HEART!!!<3


I LOVE SNCO!!!<3

I was flying 20:38

Wednesday, 4 April 2007

we played. the song was beautiful. dong bei feng was majestic. we gave it our all. we were satisfied with our playing. everyone thought we did well. WE DID DO WELL. BUT. i felt we were not given justice. WE DESERVED BETTER.WE DESERVED A GOLD WITH HONOURS. NOT A GOLD.

we were all so upset, because we know our hard work didnt pay off, and that we deserved better. i cried all the way back. my heart really ached. i was so touched to see the whole CO so motivated and united to get the GOLD WITH HONOURS. but they were all disappointed. although some tried to stay happy, i can tell. they are crying too. my heart ached to see all my juniors crying. they put in so much effort, yet this is what they got.

other schools cheer happily at a gold. some even a silver. but no, not us. we gave it our 200%. we deserved the gold with honours, but why? why didnt we get it? for others, there were tears of joy; for us, it was a sad moment. we were so excited after playing, because we knew we gave it our all, and the song was great. but, we were only awarded a GOLD. everyone recognised us. most of the audience thought we were of a gold with honours standard. BUT WHY? WHY DIDNT WE GET IT??? even SCO teachers thought we did well. i heard a RV person say "wan le, wan le, st nicks deserves it." even they thought we were better than them and admit defeat. when the results were read, many were shocked to hear that river valley got a gold with honours butwe only got a gold. they thought we were better. but why?

to add on to it, RI got a gold too. i mean, i am not trying to boast, but we were really MUCH BETTER THAN THEM. if they got a gold, how can we get the same as them? some of them didnt even memorise their scores!!! i didnt even feel that they deserved a gold. i thought they would get silver. this is not fair. how can we be getting the same as them? this sucks.

when we got back, we got scolded by susan lim. she said we should not cry and be contented with a gold. i was really pissed. and she said we were thinking too much. its a REALISTIC GOAL. we know we can, but some how we didnt get it. after crying for so long, i changed that sadness into anger. we are super unhappy that RV and RI got what they got. we were in the music room BAO YING BAO SHI-ING, eating up all of rui juan's junk food. and we went to eat 1.50 orange bowl. QI SI REN LE!!!! >.<

i heard HCI also only got a gold, and some pasir ris school got gold with honours. i really dunno what the judges are up to this year.

but CO, its ok. at least we know others now view us as a gold with honours school, although we didnt get it. everyone was touched by our music. and thats whats important. we did our best and we have nothing to be ashamed of. if the judges dont recognise that, so be it. GOOD JOB EVERYONE!

I WANT JUSTICE FOR SNCO!!!

I was flying 17:16

Tuesday, 3 April 2007

omg. its finally here. syf is less than 13 hours away. when i wake up, i will only have 4 hours to SYF!!! omg. its so scary. i have a mixed feeling of anxiety and fear. feeling very luan now. i hope CO will really pull this off and get GOLD WITH HONOURS!!! wa. i keep telling ppl to sleep early tonight but i dont think anyone will be able to la. so close to SYF!!! hopefully our hard work pays off....

i can't change the direction of the wind,
but i can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.
-SNCO 2007

I was flying 21:27

Monday, 2 April 2007

OMG. today is the first day of SYF. and many schools got gold. dunman high got gold with honours. and can you believe this, CAT HIGH GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS TOO!! omg. i almost fainted when i heard it la. no offense, but i really dit expect them to get!!! once we head, the whole co was like WHAT?! lynn and i were especially agitated. but this sort of spurred us to do well. now we all have the FIRE IN OUR EYES. we are all determined to beat them! we are all ready to go fight the war!!! i can see co members feeling the mood too.:)

GO SNCO!!! WE CAN DO THIS!!! WE WILL NOT ONLY GET GOLD WITH HONOURS BUT ALSO AIM FOR PERFECT SCORE!!!!!!! jia you jia you jia you!!!

omg i am like super hyper for SYF. cant wait!!! i am sure we will do well!

2 days. 48 hours. 2880 minutes. 172800 seconds.

I was flying 21:43

Sunday, 1 April 2007

rahh. so many things happened these 2 days. really feeling very screwed up now.

firstly, the campus superstar thing. lynn didnt make it. its really upsetting. she put in so much effort esp like to lose weight to improve her image. but what does she get in return? tears. rahh. sucks la. its so sad to see everyone so sad. see everyone so sad very xin tong. sigh. oh but xiao wei got n though. i feel very mao dun. like i should feel happy that she got in, but after seeing lynn so sad, i dont think i can be happy. i stayed with her till 10 plus. we managed to get jia min and jolene they all to go home. NVM, LYNN JIA YOU!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! CHEER UP!:) WE LOVE YOU!!!<3

wen shin came over to stay last night. we bought chips and cup noodles and rented que shen 3 to watch. after watching, we stayed up till 2 plus to talk. we were supposed to wake up at 8am this morn, but when my grandma woke us up, it was already 11!!! we went down for LUNCH. and tried looking for POSB bank cause wen shin needed to apply for her card. she was damn fascinated by toa payoh central. haha. then she went to pei lynn and i have been nerding at home eversince. i hope lynn manages to cheer up.

ok now comes my own sadness. I FAILED MY PIANO EXAM! rahh. sucks. by 8 marks. so sucks la. no wonder my dad sounded so pissed when he called me. ok there goes my hopw of learning taekwondo. i just feel that my parents dont really know me very well. like my dad, he dotes on us, but somehow i feel taht he is always looking out for the results. like piano exam, tests blah blah. for my mum, sometimes i cna tell her stuff like a friend, but sometimes, i cant even talk to her properly. she keeps saying i have bad attitude, but i merely just said hello and she said my tone very what. rahh. its like i dunno.

3 days. 72 hours. 4320 minutes. 259200 seconds.

i am emotionally drained. stop taking away what i already dont have.

I was flying 18:59