exhausting week. but TGIF!!!!:))) i have officially turned into an owl... haha. i slept from 7-1030 last night and worked through till 4... then had breakfast with some of the classmates at macs:)) but i have to say i am really proud of myself for completing my h3 tutorial!!!!!:))) i have to admit a didnt do it ALL by myself. had some help from ryan's tutorial. but at least i took the time to understand it!!!:) and i did about 3/4 of the tutorial myself! like really cracked my brain hard to do it. so i am v happy:)))) staying up till 4 was totally worth it:) but i think i gotta work faster. my brain moves v slowly. ahha. i took 4 hours to complete and understand 10 questions. so in the h3 exam which is only 3 hours i would only be able to complete 7.5 questions:/ lol.
was feeling quite sian the past few days but somehow i am all happy and cheery today despite my lack of sleep. haha. odd was really sweet last night asking me to rest well cause apparently i have been looking really zombified lately;/ thanks odd!:) jia you for your coursework:) it was a good day!:) breakfast at macs with dear friends, finishing my h3 tutorial(i have to drone on and on about this cause i really put in lots of effort k!:)) plus after h3 i met my mum(lucky her didnt go to work today) and my ah ma who had thai food for lunch(jealous!!!) at j8. well at least they bought me nice nice kuey:) tried 4 diff types of kuey salat, but my fav still form bengawan solo. yummy!:) and we redeemed my bro's free yami yoghurt and 3 of us shared it:) how much better can a friday get???:)
plenty of work to do, but sadistically speaking, i am looking forward to doing them! i'm going to conquer my bloody damn long to-do list and rule the world! ahha. ok i think i'm high cause i ate too much kuey. or maybe its cause after conquering my h3 tutorial, nothing can stop me now!! muahhaha. shit zi-high like crazy now. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:))))))
small things in life can make your day:)
I was flying 18:29
ahhh my cousins are all so cute i wanna kidnap them all! lol. i heart my cousins<3
I was flying 21:35
i am feeling really weird. my sleeping at 3 last night has led to this horrible hangover like feeling. my eyes feel really tired, but they dont seem to want to close. its a weird feeling like feeling tired, but not being able to sleep. i thought i was going to K.O the moment i got home, but then miraculously i was able to finish my econs essays. lol. i'm really turning into an owl, and my bad sleeping habits are going to kill me one day.
met up with xue ting for lunch:) long time no see:) she is still pretty much the same:) just taht she is slightly obsessed with gyming now. ahha. bahh how i envy her carefree life and confirm place in a medicine course. she was saying that mons and i looked really stressed out, which i sadly agree. actually i dunno what i am feeling stressed over. am i stressed cause there is a lot to mug? or am i stressed cause i am lagging behind others? i really think i have to be more pro active in my studies like meeting up with teachers for consultation and doing essays on my own. bahh. and i am really concerned about the chances of me getting into medicine... its like ppl who get straight As dont even have a confirm place in medicine, and i havent even got more than 2As for exams before. not to mention my plain and empty portfolio... but i guess i cant do anything about my portfolio now... the only thing i can do is to mug and mug and mug now to ensure that my results can give me a glimmer of hope... bahh why did i change a happy topic into such a depressing one. haha ok lunch with xueting was pretty fun and we catched up a bit while waiting for the terribly slow service at pizza hut. although i have to apologize for being all sian diao cause i really am v tired. sorry xueting! meet up again soon k:)
on a side note, i am really broke. i spent almost 20 bucks today on lunch and yami yoghurt for my bro. i felt like a nice sis cause i bought my bro a pint of ice cream for his birthday lol. mons thinks its a weird present. eh but at least i bought something right. nvm shall save:) oh i just remembered. i need to buy earphones. bahh i am damn forgetful.
throbbing headache. but nvm. my cousins are coming over later!:) and i asked my bro to buy kueh salat for me. and i'm drinking hot green tea now! ahha my sure win remedy for happiness:)
I was flying 17:41
yawns. tired. exhausted. really sick of school.
I was flying 21:44
bahh right after a happy blog post i saw something that made me feel....sigh. i dont know what to do anymore. maybe i can't understand and i shouldnt try to cause i havent been through it myself. oh wells.
happy thoughts jasmine, happy thoughts:)
I was flying 19:43
i can't seem to understand myself these days and its annoying. but for all these nonsense, thank god for my 3 adorable cousins and my happy foods:)
remedy for destress/getting me out of a bad mood and happiness:)
1. playing with my 3 adorable cousins (or watch them play)
2. a cup of green apple/blue berry green tea from my fav bb tea stall
3. 2 slices of yummy kuey salat from bengawan solo
4. a nice hot cup of japanese green tea
TADAH! jasmine is happy again:) lol sometimes i can be so easily satisfied. if only life was so simple like this... although i know myself this sense of satisfaction and happiness is rather temporary, but i figured why concentrate on the bad stuff? i shall focus on the beautiful stuff in life instead:)
life CAN be beautiful. if you CHOOSE it to be.
I was flying 19:21
i think i am becoming more and more antisocial. sigh. i seem to have lost all interest in social events. and i missed farewell today:( feel quite bad to sarena:( bahhh. i think school is a waste of time, esp lectures where lecturers talk to themselves-.- and i seem to detest the school building too, cause i would rush home the moment school is over and never stay in school more than necessary. i feel so trapped in school. bahh i really hate this feeling of hating school, cause i was once a school-loving person. how i wish i could wake up every morning and WANT to go to school like i used to, rather than contemplating to pon school everyday but in the end still reluctantly dragging myself to school. its so painful to do something you dont want to. but i guess sometimes, life is just like that.
dark grey.
I was flying 21:44
jasmine feels grumpy today. bahh. i am so sick of this viscious cycle of mugging. i think life is really so monotonous and sian now. and school is quite waste time now. i would rather stay at home and mug. oh wells final lap. gotta suck it in and push! but i kinda cheered up at the end of the day when christine and i answered the most intellectual question of the day. bella asked: "eh do you think i am a bimbo? like honestly" lol. then we did a hypothesis test on it and the result is yes! lol. super funny. but bella is really damn pink la! lol
and i got slightly depressed over my future again yesterday when i read about entry exams into NUS medicine. first the resume, then 2 interviews and 1 written test. i am not so worried about the interviews, but rather the resume and written test. my resume sucks. no, correction. my resume is blank-.- which means i gotta mug really really hard to get my AAAAA that might still give me a glimmer of hope. and i am super far from that aim now. bahh. where is that motivation and confidence i had when i was preparing for Os?!??!?! why did mugging for 9 subjects seem so much less painful than the 5 now???
STRENGTH. optimistic with a tinge of grey.
I was flying 15:26
i think our school is overreacting. we have to sit in register order in class now! but for me its ok la, cause i'm pretty much still sitting around the same place. ahha. and my two new tablemates are bella and christine! christine was pretty much sleeping the whole day, and jessie was stoning, so bella and i high diao. esp during math. lol. she forced mr ang to say that she is his favourite student! haha. lol. then wennie was whining that he gives her a evil look when she doesnt do tutorial. then liji asked mr ang how his evil look looks like. lol. aiya i dunno i high diao liao i find everything funny now.
its only week 2 of me becoming a full-time mugger and i am alr wayyyyy behind my schedule. sadness. i miss sec 4 when we had like tests everyday!!! at least i know i am studying. now i feel like i dunno what to do. bahh. so unprepared. and prelim schedule is out. i think we are all going to die for econs. we havent freakin finished the sylabus, just started on the second last TOPIC today. and there is only another 5 bloody weeks to econs prelims! econs dept damn smart lo. change to some lan diao 3 tutorial 1 lecture nonsense system where every lecturer is going like a bullet train leaving us clueless. and they have to put econs paper 1 in week10. i honestly dunno how they are going to finish lecturing. only 5 more lectures to complete 2 topics. madness. ok i shall stop complaining. what will be will be. just do your best and leave the rest to fate:)
school is getting more and more sian by the day. stress is piling up and i havent found a good way to cope with it yet. usually under stress, most ppl lose weight. but for me, the opposite happens. like i am not fat enough. urgh. unfair. and i need to find a good source of caffeine to keep myself awake and energised to mug. last time Os i would drink green tea or coke to keep awake. but then i think i drink too much green tea until it doesnt have any effect on me liao. bahh.
harry potter yesterday was ok, but disappointing. the visual effects were super good, but the plot is terrible. there was no fight scene at all! wth la. just keep showing disgusting ginny with harry potter and the gross lavender. i think we were damn noisy during the movie. everytime ginny appeared isa would go eew disgusting! then when draco came out wennie and isa would go ohhh so charming, then i would yuks. then silly khee ern just kept waiting for the rare appearances of his luna. and i would yay whenever ron comes out. ahha. i shall go read the entire series after As.
jasmine wants to become a mugger now now now!!!
I was flying 16:21
yay i just watched harry potter and the goblet of fire;) then harry potter and the half-blood prince tomm!:) yay i love ron!:)
I was flying 23:26
oh no i'm feeling a bit flu-ish. been feeling weird and restless since i came back from tennis at lisa's:( bahh i wanna get well now. i have this really long to-do list that hasnt been touched yet:( and got tkd grading tomm somemore:(
anw tennis at lisa's was fun:) although i still suck at it. ahha. the highlight of the day was WENNIE KILLED A BIRD WITH HER POWERFUL BALL. ahha. she hit the ball a bit too high and it hit this bird and the poor bird collapsed. great accuracy man. just when i was telling her she hit a bird, the bird sky dived down. lol. it was quite scary cause we saw this black thing drop down. wennie got really depressed after that. but we didnt see the corpse though, so maybe it didnt die! but definitely injured. poor birdie. the sun was too damn hot and we all got really tired after a while. i thought i was going to faint of heat stroke man. then we headed to the pool side to play taboo which was really fun!:) or rather funny. ahha. wennie went crazy and laughed non stop. and lisa gave her really loud AHAHAHAH. lol. i can't stand it when she laughs. its damn funny. and wennie linked thunderstorm to earthquake! ahha. fun day:)
bahh i'm feeling so distracted:( i want a brain filter!
I was flying 18:46
had a nice lunch with sarena:) stupid zhanni pang sei us:( lol. and sarena eats supppppperrr slow. lol. havent talked to her in a while so it was quite fun:)
got back all my results now, and its glaring at me telling me to buck up. off to mug!
you think you got it, but you dont.
I was flying 14:49
i contradict myself in my head so often and so much that sometimes i think i am schitzo. i find myself arguing with myself often, and sometimes i even negotiate with myself. lol. i think i think too much. maybe thats why i sleep so much. ahha. and recently i find myself v irritating. lol. i get so irritated by some things i do, but yet i do it. i really believe that in everyone's mind there is the good and the evil, like those you see on tv. i bet evil jasmine and good jasmine hates each other. thats why they are always contradicting. lol.
or maybe i am just going bonkers. yea. that must be it.
I was flying 15:58
started the day off quite well:) had breakfast with dear mons!:) we had a nice long chat and i'm really happy she finally sorted out her thinking! i feel v comforted now after reading her blog cause i know this time, she is finally able to let go of everything and move on:) i'm so happy for her:) JIA YOU MONS!:) and to you, obiquek. good riddance.
but sadly my happiness was short lasted. physics was a disaster. worse than i thought. really feel like killing myself for all the careless mistakes and what nonsense i wrote. was feeling like crap, emo-ing like crazy during the break. i really felt like giving up on physics(not to mention h3-.-) but talking to jas pang made me feel better:) and i promised myself i wont emo anymore(unless absolutely necessary) i'm going to work really really hard for prelims k!!!!
and i'm feeling quite high now cause wennie yy and lisa come over for mahjong and cards! we were supposed to go eat jack's and bowl, but evil physics got the better of us. we ended up settling for pizza hut and mahjong at my house:) lol wennie is seriously damn funny. dumb blonde. ahha. her new nickname is BA TIAO!!! hahah. funny diao. yay i love having fun with my silly friends:)
and i'm going to quit playing on facebook. eh don't laugh at me ok. i really am going to! ok maybe i will play just once a week:) i've set my mind on converting into a full time mugger! painfully and slowly, i will achieve. haha.
chiong ahhh jasmine!!!:))))
I was flying 18:37
haha i just woke up an hour ago. was up till 4 watching zettai kareshi!:) and my eyes are still slightly puffy for crying. the last episode was so sad:( but i think the show is really funny and nice. so cool if a robot like naito really exists! then everyone would have their ideal boyfriend. ahha. but i think its really touching that the robot actually had its own feelings and such an innocent and pure love for its owner! so sad the robot died in the end:( made me cry like shit. on a side note, the actor who acts as the robot is damn cool! he really moves like a robot! how i miss my jap doramas:)
school was pretty interesting yesterday. maybe cause it was friday i was in an exceptionally good mood:)during lunch break the 6O girls had a really funny and interesting convo! somehow everyone was just sitting tgt having a mass convo. lol. they were talking about really weird and funny stuff, like pregnancy, caesarian, marriage, and gossiping about couples in school. lol. sometimes i really pity the guys in our class. have to listen to all these nonsense from us. lol. as we talked about couples in school, they mentioned one that got me reminded of a particular jerk. sigh sometimes i feel really helpless like i can't even help my good friend. its makes me really angry when i think about how she gets so upset and affected by him. i really feel like going up to slap him and tell him to get out of her life, but i guess i shouldnt really interfere with it. but i know she is doing a great job coping with all of this. and i'm really proud of her. i can't imagine what i would do if i were her. prob something really violent. lol. girl, if you are reading this, you must stay strong k! i'll always be there to support you! and lend you a helping fist if you wanna box someone! lol. sigh. if only robots like naito really exist. then we wouldnt have such probs. ahha.
h3 wasn't as bad as i imagined. although i failed, but at least i got promoted to the 75th percentile! no longer at the bottom yo:) the lesson was funny. although the lecturer was boring and just read word-for-word from the notes(she even read out tables), but somehow i kept awake and was quite amused! everytime there was a link on the screen, she would repeatedly tell us how she doesnt have her internet cable and how some electronics club person took it. ahha. it got really funny cause she kept repeating it. lol. then the rest of the lesson was spent looking at christine play golf on her hp and watching the 2 gays do silly things like using a red pen to "slash their wrists". lol. ok maybe i was just really high that its the last lesson of the week. lol. but i'm going to work really really hard for h3 and get at least a merit!:)
i'm going to start studying and be a good girl!:)
I was flying 13:17
i feel rather happy today!:) school was quite fun. or rather funny. lol had fun zi highing with wennie during lunch! it was funny to think all the highness and nonsense came from sheryl's wallet. lol. seriously damn lame. and yy and i wrote the next paragraph for our exam song! lol. i shall publish the song once its fully done:)
got back chem today. it was ok i guess. could be better but i heck liao. careless mistakes here and there and the examiner was writing the word high over this certain question! haha i was like huh? then she circled the word buffer and wennie and yy thinks i wrote BUTTER solution-.- and i concluded that 6O is a v smart class! smarter than we look! ahha.
one more day to the weekends!:)
i love skippy peanut butter!:)
I was flying 18:50
i think my bro passed his sickness to me. bahh. cross contamination:( wasn't feeling well yesterday then i missed JTS:( i was so loking forward to it:( then i couldnt go:( sighhh. and i felt like shit in school today. napped for 5 hours (i dont think its considered a nap anymore lol) then my cousins came!:) haha. then i felt ok liao:) they are sooooo cute:) i think its like a mental thing. my brain is just telling my body I DON WAN TO GO TO SCHOOL.
i shall look forward to the happier things in life like lisa said. 2 more days of school left to the weekends!:) and i hope tpy pool opens soon:( i wanna go swimming!!!!
R.I.P Micheal Jackson
I was flying 21:10
gosh i am tired. my cousins came over and.... ya i'm tired. 3 hyperactive kids to 1 lan diao person is v tiring k! but they so cute. ahha. and i just kept feeding them non stop. they really can eat a lot man! sadly my "lets see who can fall asleep first game" didnt work with them. sigh. and i can still hear them calling jie jie jie jie jie jie its still ringing in my head. lol.
plus wimbledon finals took so bloody long last night... ended only at 1.30... but it was all worth it cause....
FEDERER WON!!!! YAY!!!!:))))
lol my eyes feel like they are going to pop out anytime soon... the match lasted 4 h 15 min... initially the match was super super exciting, cause the first few sets were all v close. then the 5th set was a nightmare cause there was no tie breaker. so they played on and on and on and on. initially still quite ok, then after a while my bro and i got quite frustrated cause neither one of them could break each other's serve. but of course federer managed to do that eventually:) but that was after like 30 games-.- he won 16-14!!!
GREATEST OF ALL TIME. ROGER FEDERER.
I was flying 17:16
watching wimbledon finals now.
ROGER FEDERER FTW!!!!!!!
I was flying 23:12
I'M BACKKKKKK!!!!:)))))
haha feels good to be blogging again. deleted previously emo posts and no more emo-ing from jasmine!(i hope) ahha quite funny reading my previous post complaining about h3. not much have changed i guess. i still complain about physics. and i complain about school. and practically everything around me. lol. zz i think i complain and bitch too much. evil me. haha. and i am still havin really weird dreams. and its around the same. i always dream of someone holding my hand, and it feels really real! but this time the person in my dream was weird. you know they say your dreams reflect your thoughts in the day? i am now wondering what nonsense my screwed up brain is thinking of in the day. lol. but its kinda scary. like some premonition.
went for the PSC scholarship fair today with lisa wennie and yy:) i opened many new doors for me:) haha. but i still havent made up my mind. there were so many brochures we ended up throwing some away cause the bag was too heavy. oh oh i changed my ambition:) i wanna be a doctor now!:) a gynae actually:) (ok stopping eee-ing me and giving me weird looks) but medicine is freakin hard to get in, so currently my back up plans are 1.aeronautical engineer, 2.police woman. lol. 3.tourism 4.EDB. ok but thats still quite far away. CTs just ended and i am feeling bleak about my future:/ ahha.
hodge lodge with 6O was a blast yesterday!!!:)))) so fun to have the whole place to ourselves. we went crazy playing wiii(omg its suppeeeerr fun) and singing our lungs out. and i owned monopoly!!!:))) ahhhh i wanna play wiiiiii!!!!! then we headed to junyu's house for pool, which i still suck at, and mahjong:) havent had so much fun in a long while:)
bahh was watching AYG shooting yesterday and i miss shooting:( was super happy when cca ended but now i really miss it:( i miss my gun:( i didnt get to take a picture with it before leaving. quite sad that i ended shooting on a bad note. the last time i held my gun was during nationals, and i cried holding it. bahh. i feel so stupid now. i'm so going to join shooting in uni if there is. i felt really bad for this girl who shot 298 in AYG. i can just imagine how she felt. the nearest score to hers was like 350++ poor her:(
on an evil note, i am going to scold someone when i see the person online. angry angry.
but on a happy note, my dear cousins are coming back tomm!!!:))) happy happy happy:) will be going airport to pick them up. hope i dont catch h1n1 there. ahha.
I was flying 21:50
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Friday, 31 July 2009