I WANT TO WIN A TRIP TO HAWAII BY EATING MACDONALDS!!!!!
lol macs is really damn smart to come up with this kind of promotional activity. i'm going to eat macs with jas pang tomm! hopefully we'll win something cool! haha.
I was flying 21:09
if i could choose a way to die, i would choose to die in a plane crash.
was watching air crash investigation and somehow i started to imagine if i were one of the passengers in the plane and i know that the plane is going to crash. what would go through mind at that time? sigh but its sad to know how many plane crashes and lives lost needed to find out that there is something wrong about the plane. planes are such amazing things. man is truly smart to be able to invent something like that. but i still felt a bit wth with the plane crash that occurred cause the captain let his son play with the controls. so many lives lost cause of one unprofessional pilot. sigh. and everything is so high tech now that pilots put too much trust in machines. humans are still more reliable than machines if you ask me. for some reason i am starting to feel that sense of disappointment that i felt when i first decided to give up on my pilot dream. i don't know whether i am more disappointed in the system that makes it so hard to be a pilot or disappointed in myself for giving up that dream that i held strong for what 7 years? i havent even tried but yet i have given up. where is the me in sec school that rebutted every single comment that started with "but you can't be a pilot because..." very confidently??? hmmm. i can't even rmb what was the thing that made me go thats it, its impossible.
what am i blabbering about. bahh. bored. tired.
i wanna take a plane ride. its just not the same looking at clouds from above.
the metal bird in the sky
I was flying 21:19
life is so boring there is really nothing much to blog about.
time is ticking; i'm panicking.
mug mug mug
I was flying 21:48
life is so meaningless now, nothing interesting to look forward to. sigh. its really a test of mental strength i guess, to see who can tahan till the end. i'm feeling really drained and i dont want to burn out during As, but yet, who can afford the time to rest now? NO ONE. precisely. especially for a dumb girl with poor grades trying to get into NUS med:/ sigh. i guess we all pay a price to live the life we want.
was thinking about random stuff that day and i started to think about how much i've changed in this 2 years in rj. to say i have become worse would not be entirely fair to myself, cause i think i've become more independant, more hardworking and mentally stronger. but sometimes, i think that a small part of me has turned that independance to solitarity; the hardworking to muggerish and no life; the mentally stronger to overly competitive. and i contradict myself in my head a lot more. its like i would start whining and complaining about something, then i will tell myself, aiya don be so bad la. its like i feel like i have become more symphatetic yet bitchy at the same time? i have no idea whether that is even possible. sometimes i feel like i have lost the real me, but yet at others it seems to get clearer. i am so confused about who i am now. hmmm but i guess as i grow, the experiences accumulated have made me more mature and to think about things in different perspectives. maybe thats why i am feeling so confused and schitzo? ahh i dunno. no more brain space to think so much. maybe fate is challenging me, helping me understand myself better.
everything happens for a reason.
what will be, will be.
I was flying 13:52
i'm thinking of stuff to write for my personal statement for the teaching internship thingy now. its so hard to write something not overly cliche but yet impressive and not fake at the same time. hmmm actually i'm not sure whether i really want this, but who knows, maybe i will miraculously enjoy teaching and consider it as a job. ahha.
still looking for medical attachments though. hopefully can find a long one:) any lobangs anyone??? bahh i really really hope i can make it into NUS medical!
I was flying 15:48
farewell today! finally i'm out of this school!(sort of)
farewell assembly was really boring. the GOH(some ex student) speech was quite interesting though. and for me the highlight of it was the end, where i cheered(not with everyone in the raffles cheer) AFTER everyone had cheered : I AM FINALLY OUT OF THIS BLOODY SCHOOL!:) ok well sort of. oh and there was the quite nice song that they sang. one of the girls had this really good voice (i think it was the other one not the css one). ohoh and how can i forget, the school gave us this farewell present which everyone thought was really ultimate cheeziness. actually it was quite ok. its a black passport holder with the school crest. the thing that spoiled it was the worlds underneath that said "home is where raffles is" lol. it really ruined the thing for me. but ok nice box. ahah. one of the good things about raffles is that we are RICH *kaching bling!* after everything our class ultra mega lagged around again before heading for lunch:)
6O had nice lunch at ishi mura at paradiz:) i rmb the first outing we went to paradiz too! now the last outing. ahha. looking back, i think we have all changed so much(as a class) since that first outing. even the shopping centre changed. ahaha. was talking to isa bocks and lisa and somehow we ended up talking about childbirth and even got to some gross details. lol. i love it how our class can talk about anything and everyting:) headed to minds cafe:) it was great fun!!! i will always rmb the stupid sleeping queen game. wennie and i kept getting the cat queen! lol. then we played a mass game of telepath with the guys and we realised guys and girls are on totally different wavelengths. its like one is a gamma ray and one is a radiowave. lol. oh but i felt quite awkward cause we were in the middle of the game and everyone was scrambling to write words then this 2 ppl from the neighbouring table came over to ask us for a favour to do a dare. then we sort of ignored them and rejected them straight up. haha. i felt quite bad cause i think they looked a bit pissed. i bet they are like i should have known better to ask rj ppl. ahah. oops. felt so paisei>.< but anw great fun again:) my voice lowered about half an octave after all the laughing and screaming. ahah great fun always with 6O:)
almost there...
I was flying 18:42
education at the expense of the environment.
the amount of paper we consume when we study is.... scary. i think the photocopying shop alone consumes AT LEAST 30 boxes of papers a day. i don't even want to think of the number of trees felled to make that amount of paper. its like a processed forest in there. poor trees.
I was flying 21:40
college awards are a joke man. when you give out 1256 awards(yes no typo there) it shows that the awards don't mean anything. its just a sad, pathetic effort by the school to "recognise" your contributions by giving you a piece of paper and to boost everyone's testimonial. i say, LOAD OF CRAP. and it still boils down to the same thing. achievement and your position in the cca. the only way the school defines achievement is through the golds and gold with honours you get from SYF or the 1st 2nd 3rds you get in competitions. what about those who worked really hard but still didnt manage to achieve anything? NOTHING. to see some names up there made me feel like really? i am on the same level as them? why is his/her name here and not there? i mean honestly, is this the only way you can show your appreciation to your students? by spamming awards? you can say i am biased or plain cynicla, but i just feel the whole thing is really insincere and superficial. and the awards don't have its value anymore. superficial. sad. pathetic.
what a learning experience. i guess 2 years of jc HAS taught me something. life is all about achievements. without them, you are NOTHING.
the raffles education; the ULTIMATE learning experience.
I was flying 22:19
i-cant-stop-sleeping-syndrome
i have no idea why i keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping these days! i think i prob slept like 3 out of 7 days in a week! i know scary right! but despite having slept so much, i still sleep alot! i think my battery recharging system got prob. or maybe its the battery itself got prob. its like when i finally have the motivation to do something, i do it for a while then zzzzzzz. i need to study with an ice bucket i can stuff my head into to keep me awake man. rahh.
and i finally went for tkd today after ponning for over a month>.< i feel like an old lady with brittle bones and aches here and there:( sigh but at least i got some exercise. ever since PE ended i have been a bum. and i can't freakin fit into my prom dress anymore!!! die die die. and some senior in sec school told me you lose weight when you go to JC. my foot lo! since coming to rj i have put on dunno how much weight cause of all this stress:( why can't my body be normal like others and lose weight when its stressed. sigh. either ways, in 2 months time i have to miraculously lose weight despite of preparation for As or my dress has to magically expand. if that doesnt work out, wennie says she is going to make a dress for me, project runway style. lol.
sleepy me.
I was flying 21:38
last day of school.
really happy cause i know my journey in rj is FINALLY coming to an end. i honestly have never disliked going to school till i came to rj! i guess 2 years was not enough to change my cynical mindset. ahha. but at the same time i'm really sad cause its my last official day with dear 6O!!!! i guess the class was really the only thing that kept me going and made me feel like i was at least a part of something in school. 6O was the reason my grumpy whining and sulking in the mornings would turn into a smile and laughter at the end of the day:) no matter how stressful school is, there is always something to laugh or smile about in 6O:) and silly me i rmb how i used to fear that 6O wouldnt be a nice class in the beggining of J1. haha. it isnt a nice class, its an AWESOME class!:)
bahh i promised myself i won't cry during farewell assembly, cause there is nothing to be sad about leaving rj. but i think i'll definitely cry when i think of leaving 6O! i'm alr getting a little teary typing this blog post:( and ms soh had to make it worse by being so nice taking a picture with us and leaving us a real nice message! haha i realise i am v blessed to always have v nice chem teachers:)))
6O is hands down my most favourite class ever out of the 12 classes i had!!!:) thank you friends for making my jc life so fun and memorable!<3
I was flying 14:54
sadness my phone is sent for repair:( and it isnt even one year old yet! and they said it will be ready in shortest a week time to 3 months!!! omgggg.
I was flying 15:43
when life throws lemons at you, make lemonade out of it. but what if you hate lemonade, and all your lemons are rotten? you tell yourself, simple, just ignore the lemons and live life the way you want to. but the world says i don't care what you hate, even if the lemonade is poison, drink it. sadly the voice of the world is often or rather ALWAYS louder than your own. so you ignore the voice within and drink the rotten lemonade. the strong ones survive and move on; the weak ones suffer from the poisoning and are left behind. this is the real world.
you are just plain stupid.
I was flying 15:55
back from genting!:) home sweet home:)
somehow i feel even more tired after this break. aha. but well it was fun:) the bus ride up the mountain(or hill?) was tortorous though. it was going round and round and round till i couldnt stand it and i puked. and now i'm still having a bit of sorethroat from the acid burn. yuks. the rest of the trip was fine. it was just eating, shopping, sleeping. pretty relaxing:) my mum tried to pull me into the casino with her just because i am 18 and legal but i didnt want to cause i know its really smoky inside. anw i watch enough las vegas to know how a casino is like. ahah. we almost didnt make it in time for the flight this evening though. it was really like amazing race. we were one of the last on the plane. when we got to the terminal it was alr gate closed. then we had to hurry to board the plane. aha.
and although i had a nice trip, there are somethings that i really can't stand malaysia for! or rather things i really love singapore for(thank god). 1. NON SMOKING REGIONS. although singapore spams non smoking signs(yay) but i'm really thankful for it. in malaysia, everyone smokes EVERYWHERE. even in aircon places and restaurants! i think the world would be a better place without cigarettes. we should just ban them altogether! 2. CLEAN DRY TOILETS WITH A FREAKIN TOILET BOWL. the toilets there are really dirty! the floor is always super wet and it stinks like mad. first thing i did when i reached singapore was to use the toilet. nice sweet smelling dry toilet with a nice toilet bowl:) 3. OUR BEAUTIFUL CHANGI AIRPORT:))) i know its a low cost carrier terminal, but the infrastructure is seriously... what can i say, changi airport rocks:) its no joke to be world no. 1 k! 4. FUNCTIONAL SMOOTH ROADS. i totally get what ms tan meant by lame fiscal policies building roads to nowhere-.- and the roads are poorly built somemore-.- ok this is so typical singaporean complaining about everything. ahah. thank god i live in singapore:)
bahh my break is over and i'm supposed to start the viscous mugging cycle all over again. bleah. feel like a guinea pig running in the wheel. its never ending! zzz and i miss marcus benedict and gareth so much!:((( cant wait for dec when i can go over to visit them!
run and don't look back.
I was flying 21:16
I PASSED H3. serious. i'm not kidding. I PASSED H3. and no, the marks were not counted wrongly. I REALLY PASSED H3!
its like a dream come true. ahha.
I was flying 16:42
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Thursday, 29 October 2009