the wait is over, fate has made its decision - medicine is not for me. the news came as less of a blow to me i guess. after the first rejection i guess it gets easier to accept... and plus i didnt believe that my appeal would be successful. although i would pray for the same thing everytime i went to the temple with my ah ma.
a part of me wants to give up and just concentrate on aerospace. but that passion for medicine is not completely gone yet. that little spark of hope left made me research on the post-graduate medical school. i guess i'm just not ready to give up yet. not entirely.
its funny how i went round and round, but got back to square one. in sec 1 and 2, i aspired to be a pilot, and i had it all planned out - join youth flying club in jc, study aerospace engineering in ntu,
be a pilot. in sec 3 i aspired to join the air force and get their scholarship to study aerospace engineering in ntu. luckily i was sane enough to drop the air force idea, cause no way was i ever going to get fit enough to pass their test. ahha. in sec 4, i forgot about my aspirations for the most part and just concentrated in getting into a good jc. somehow in the mid of my j1 year, my aspiration took a 360 degree change. i suddenly wanted to do medicine. i suddenly didnt want to study in ntu anymore. i suddenly wanted to get scholarships to further studies in imperial college. i have no idea what sparked that change. the rj culture i blame most of the time, i believed that the elitist rj culture made me seek for fame and prestige. many a times when i thought of this point i would question myself. is prestige the reason why you wanted to do medicine? because being a doctor is cool and prestigious? but i still believe the answer is no. or at least i have told myself so. if my main aim was prestige, there are many more routes to take. and if i were after prestige, i would definitely have chosen imperial over ntu.
so now, i am back to square one, back to the very first solid aspiration that i had, to go to ntu to do aerospace. haha. its as if fate had planned for me to choose this path all along, but i had strayed, and now it has pulled me back. funny how fate works. i shall not whine or resent (trying...) because i must stick to my belief:
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
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Friday, 9 July 2010