hmmm. i just realised i don't really know what "i think therefore i am" means. jacq is going to nag at me for misuse of the quote. ahha.
the human mind is so complex and weird. i always think that the idea of "subconscious thinking" is really interesting. its like sometimes i have this feeling like my brain is not really controlled by me. like my brain is controlling me instead, as if it had a life of its own. if everyone really has full control of his brain, then there should not be things such as subconcious thinking or uncontrollable emotions right? kinda scary thinking that we are being controlled by something that we cannot control. humans are born to be control freak huh.
was feeling this sudden outburst of emotions - disappointment, worry, gloominess and maybe a tint of envy? when i saw pictures on facebook of NUS law camp. although i have no idea what that has got to do with me, but i just suddenly felt this surge of emotions. and i couldnt control it. it just took over me and made me gloomy for the rest of the afternoon. if i could control my brain, then i should be able to prevent this surge of emotions right? hmmm or maybe matters of the heart and logical thinking are mutualy exclusive? i dont really think so though. anw the logical part of me started to think. so what exactly am i upset about? worrying about uni life? disappointed about not making it to med? envy of those who made it into the courses of their choice?
i dunno whats with me. i never used to be so "emotionally unstable". i thought i was the kind who was able to control her emotions well and would not show extreme emotions. i used to be relatively clear-headed and optimistic. but somehow this year i think that i have changed mentally... more vulnerable to emotions, mood swings and more pessimistic. i used to be able to look at a cup "half full". but i look at a half full cup and worry and fret constantly about the possibility of dropping the cup and breaking it causing it to runout of water.
maybe i am just thinking too much. need a brain wash.
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Tuesday, 15 June 2010