omg i am damn lack of sleep!!! i was totally late for work today. was like 3 trains away from my norm. then when i got to work, i was also like half dead and dazed. the entire day le! ok maybe except lunch. ahah. sian ttm le! then there was this nurse who called and i just totally stoned after saying "good afternoon, admissions office" i just couldnt process what she was saying! then she was like i am from sleep disorders unit. in my head the whole time i was just thinking "hmmm nurse, btw do you happen to have an extra bed??? cause i think i may i also need to go there...." then the poor nurse kept having to repeat herself... lol. wanted to leave at 5, but i was kinda enjoying chatting with winnie online. aha. if you are wondering, YES she is also at WORK. ahaha.
too many things on my mind lately. getting more and more pessimistic. i used to be like greyish-optimistic. like optimistic generally, but leaving a "what if" at the back of my head. now i'm like pale black pessimistic. things that were originally ok or even good, i thought the worse of it. big waves of emotions rushed through me as i stoned at the files infront of me. there were many a time when i could literally feel my cheeck burning and tears brimming in my eyes. super super emotional just by THINKING of stuff. will probably flood singapore if those bad thoughts really happened. and everytime that feeling came, i would pretend to yawn and then rub my eyes looking really tired but i just wanted to make sure no one saw my tears. everyone would think i am some weirdo if i start crying for no reason la-.- need to bleach myself to turn my pale black back to at least a dark grey and get all the negativity out of my system!!!!!
ok i need to just go for a nice break or just do something i like and FORGET everything. i need to just take things as it comes and deal with it. stop looking back, and stop fretting over the future. be concerned of only what is in the PRESENT. which is SLEEP. ok i am going to go zzzz now or else you will see me on the news tomm with headlines:
"SLEEPING LEARNER DRIVER CRASHES INTO TREE"
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Thursday, 20 May 2010