wa i was really damn sian diao and slightly depressed on friday... cause i still havent gotten results from NUS med:( i was like looking forward to friday the entire week! (since the previous batch of results came out on fri) then i heard a second batch of ppl got their results... but when i went online, my application status was still "application processing". waa you have no idea how disappointed i was. then i was feeling really uneasy so i went to the brightsparks forum to see what ppl had to say but i just got more sian diao after reading the forum. like many many many ppl got results liao... apparently everyday ppl get results. then this person was like saying "if by now you still havent received your results, its probably game over". my heart just sank. like the titanic. lol. but i shall not despair! there were also ppl in the same sampan as me, still waiting too. and till i get the letter of rejection, i shall TRY to be positive about it and be patient... rahh i keep telling myself not to think about it just let it be. but then now that i work in a hospital, everytime i see a doctor around i think of it once! so you can imagine i worry about it almost ALL the time:/
i dunno if i have ever wanted something so bad in my life:/ but then again, ppl say when you want something too badly, you prob don get it. but then again there are ppl who believe that determination will get you to your goal. ahha. i think i am going to go schitzo soon. its like i have 2 personalities in my brain. when i think negatively, i will be like "eh must stay postive!" but then the negative side will be like "aiya its fate... just accept it..." and when i hear about some ppl getting it, i will be like "wth this kind of ppl can get i cannot??? sad diao!!!" then the good side will be like "eh no bitching! wait you get bad karma!" ahah. seriously going nuts man.
maybe god is testing me, to see how long i can perservere, to see if this is really something i want. my determination has wavered before, but i think now as the days go by, the more sure of myself that this is really something i want to do. i really really hope i can get it! rahh how desperate can i get.
patience, perserverance and positive thinking! go go go!
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Sunday, 16 May 2010