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"you try your very best, but if it doesnt work out, thats how fate has planned for it to be."
fate has made its decision: i didnt make it to med. was really disappointed on fri... silly me i wanted to keep it from my parents at first, cause i didnt want them to be disappointed... but turns out, my parents alr knew and they were telling me not to be too disappointed and to try for the appeal. ahha. and they were trying to console me sayign ohh aerospace is great too. but i just felt worse cause they were being so nice about it. i felt like i totally let them down. they had such great hopes for me... sigh.
anw i was quite marvelled by the workings of this mystery force. on sat, i went to the temple to pray with my ah ma and i got a bad qian. i didnt really read it, i was afraid it would make me pessimistic and depressed and all, so i just burnt it. i refused to ask the shifus to help me explain what this meant. i really tried to avoid thinking about it, but it kept hounding me. for the rest of the day, at work, at tuition, at home, i tried to occupy my mind so i wouldnt think of it, but i just couldnt forget about it. i felt so stoned out the entire day. i even harboured the thought of giving up on med and the appeal completely.
this morn, i needed to go ubi to register for an account. on the way there, my dad and i got there RATHER successfully with minimal wrong turns and illegal turns and parkings here and there. you would think that since you can get there you can get back. but on our way back, we were more lost than ever. lol. somehow we turned into tampines. and it was just a really ulu road, on one side was the paya lebar air base and the trees just covered the top so there was not much sunlight. we were hoping to see the ikea and find our way home, but miraculously, we ended up at this temple that we used to go since young. i just felt a lot better after going there... the priest(hmmm i dunno wat is the term) told me that as long as i am willing to work hard and will be humble upon success, god will help me... but then if i dont get it, then its fate... 那就是我的命。i sort of 看开了. haha.
Que sera sera, what will be will be.
I was flying 21:08
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Credits: KIMHONG!
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Sunday, 23 May 2010