this year's birthday felt very normal. it sort of whizzed past like any other day besides the nice smses that i received from my dear friends:) my grandpa is still in hospital. he got hospitalized on mon for profuse vomitting and the doctors did more checks on him and discovered more probs and so he is still there-.- have been just runnign to and fro from the hospital this week... so i spent my birthday going to the hospital in the afternoon, then going for tuition and in the night driving lessons.
i thought about so much stuff this year. i guess this year really determines my future so to speak. so many things had happened since i returned from shanghai. first was my grandpa's hospitalisation then the DSTA scholarship. i dunno why i am feeling so frustrated. normally ppl would be ecstatic to be awarded a scholarship, but i was just so confused and all. i thought i had this all planned out, i alr knew about the bond and going overseas and everything, but its like when it really came, i just sort of lost it.
plus we had quite an unpleasant experience in the hospital with the nurses and staff and all, i really think that the public service is really inefficient. there were so many ppl complaining, like when we were visiting there would be the family members of other patients complaining and telling us their stories too. and i got to observe the life of a doctor and the hospital setting in detail. my mum was like "are you sure you wanna be a doctor? you gotta put up with all the nonsense ppl like us give you you know" and i started to doubt myself again. but after a while i rmb why i wanted to apply for med again and i was fine:) i guess my mum is just trying to help me make sure that i am really prepared for this mentally. its really not easy, but thats life. if everything is to easy, there is no more meaning to it right?:)
so much to consider. sighh. i shall try to not think of all this for now. what will be will be. shall try to enjoy the last 15 min of my special day, eating my fav strawberry tarts that my dear ah ma bought for my birthday cause she knows i don really like cake, watching my fav reality programme survivor and enjoy my last year as a teenager:)
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Friday, 30 April 2010