my heart is beating in a super irregular manner now. like lub-dub-*pauses for a few seconds*-lub-dub-lub-dub-lub-dub (speed X2). lubdubbydubdub. crazy shit. ahha.
am going into this week with really really mixed feelings. like kinda happy cause next week is relatively a relaxing week, with common tests and PBL and all. but then fri is the BIG DAY. ok actually there is no official announcement that is it friday, but then EVERYONE is saying that it is friday. why why why isnt the news saying anything yet?!??! purposely keeping us in suspense>.< i am really scared and nervous going into this week cause i know how time flies. like once you start the week, in a blink of an eye, its friday. dooms day:/ like just thinking of it makes my heart go lubdubbydubdub. i really do hope that it will turn out fine. i keep telling myself its ok its ok its ok, but i know how emotional i can get and i really hope i don break down on that day. its like PSLE results i cried although my results were neither good nor bad and i didnt exactly put in a lot of effort. O lvls i cried cause i was really happy and nervous. of course i am hoping for a repeat of the O lvl feel, but the feeling going into results day this time is just v different. the confidence level is different. the effect is different. if you screwed Os, you just don get into the jc of your choice. you screw As, you don get into a good uni and that is going to haunt you deep into your future. i had a silly idea of not going to school to collect my results so as to avoid all the insensitive rj ppl that i will definitely meet and just check my results online alone. happy sad i can deal with it myself in my bed room. pls pls pls pls let my intuition be wrong, let those nightmares never come true and let a miracle happen on fri.
kinda frustrated at the same time too. why do adults argue over silly stuff. sigh. you dunno whether to laugh at them or feel frustrated at the chaos. one person tells you this, another tells you that. its unfair to judge cause you are not involved in the conflict. but yea its kinda irritating and frustrating shit. hmmm but i guess i kinda mature in the sense that i don get too emotionally tied up over their arguments anymore. i rmb in sec 3 i got really emotional about their arguments and all that it really affected me. its not that i don care, its just that me getting upset is not going to change anything. unless there is something practical i can do to improve things, i guess its best to just be impartial and let them solve their own probs. ahhh i shall just try to busy myself with work/games/tv so that time flies fast and all the bad things will end themselves and my fate will be revealed. i believe everything is predestined. everything happens for a reason.
dear fate, pls be kind.
I was flying 22:33
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Sunday, 28 February 2010