blogging keeps you sane. it allows you to rant out all the nonsense bottled up inside. so at 3.30am .on a tuesday morning, jasmine feels that its time to start blogging again. haha
i miss my cousins. i really do. i hate/love it when they call. i get super excited and happy when i hear those cute squeaky voices going jasmine jie jie!!!! but for only like 10s. cause being the sweet and lovable monkeys they are, their next line is always "jie jie i miss you can you come to shanghai?" and its like a 180 degree change from a hyper HI! to a sad and pitiful whiney i miss you:( wa piang its damn sad when i have to tell them i can't go over and see them although i really really want to:( but they are so cute. when i ask them to come back to singapore instead they will tell me "i got no money. you working you got money" ahhaa. i was so eager to fly there and see them i actually went to buy 4D on sun to see if my 2 bucks will tranform into an air ticket to shanghai. ahah. but everyone knows you don't strike 4D as and when you like it. i think its like how it is in life when you want something so badly you usually don't get it. haha. i must have been too eager:/ CNY is going to suck this year cause they are not going to be back. i can alr imagine sulking in my room and occassionally popping into the living room to force a smile and shake hands with those relatives i see once a year. BOOOO HOOOO HOOOO.
ok back to earth. my bodyclock is absolutely screwed. was up till 3 on sun doing lesson plans and what not so i absolutely K.O.ed when i got home today. with more work on my hands. 2 weeks and i am screaming taboleh tahan! i am wondering how teachers actually can teach for like 10 years some even for a few decades. i kinda regret but not regret this teaching thing. i mean regret as in i came in with a clear intention that i wouldnt be a teacher in the future, just here for a job and an experience. but i don't regret cause its really an eyeopening experience. its almost like i have been living in another singapore and now the berlin wall has been knocked down and i am exposed to the other side. kind of a humbling experience i guess. so far i enjoyed interacting with the students and teaching as in the ACT of teaching is ok i guess, but i absolutely whine at the backstage work teachers do. like the preparations and all. :( ok but i have decided i am going to make the best out of this 9 weeks. even if it means staying up late everyday. i really hope i can help the students as much as possible, like at least they can choose their courses in future and choose where they want to go. i know how dreadful it is to do somehting you don't like but have no choice:/
i kinda promised a student i would extend and teach till june if she did well for her test:/ i was really touched that after only 1 lesson she came and asked me to stay and continue teaching her:) i hope she does well but i dunno if i can keep to my promise:( even if i extend i was hoping to drop math completely cause i really don't like teaching math. i love teaching science though! its fun to fill their minds with new concepts about the world and all. and i get damn happy when students ask me questions that are not really in the syllabus cause it shows they are really interested:) math is kinda useless. i mean BASIC math is useful cause it ensures you get the correct change and can deal with your finances and all. but other than that, i havent seem to found a use for it since sec 1:/ but yet math is the kind of subject that everyone has to take. sian. i can't teach a subject i don have passion in. its like i find math so sian, but then i have to make my students like it? kind of a tall order eh. but for the students, i must jia you! i really hope to help more students do well and be able to pursue their dreams. haha sounds so cliche. its so gokusen! like yamaguchi sensei. ahah.
ok i think this is enough ranting for someone up at 3am. ahha. i should give myself a がんばりましょう！ chop:) (that was meant for my students and i bought at daisou at only 2 bucks! great bargain) and よくできました！ chop:) (its actually 3 chops in one set! ok stop obsessing over the chop) to motivate myself!:) if i got through 2 years in rj, i can get through anything. haha.
i forsee my blog will be up and alive again. blogging keeps one sane.
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Tuesday, 26 January 2010