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life is so meaningless now, nothing interesting to look forward to. sigh. its really a test of mental strength i guess, to see who can tahan till the end. i'm feeling really drained and i dont want to burn out during As, but yet, who can afford the time to rest now? NO ONE. precisely. especially for a dumb girl with poor grades trying to get into NUS med:/ sigh. i guess we all pay a price to live the life we want.

was thinking about random stuff that day and i started to think about how much i've changed in this 2 years in rj. to say i have become worse would not be entirely fair to myself, cause i think i've become more independant, more hardworking and mentally stronger. but sometimes, i think that a small part of me has turned that independance to solitarity; the hardworking to muggerish and no life; the mentally stronger to overly competitive. and i contradict myself in my head a lot more. its like i would start whining and complaining about something, then i will tell myself, aiya don be so bad la. its like i feel like i have become more symphatetic yet bitchy at the same time? i have no idea whether that is even possible. sometimes i feel like i have lost the real me, but yet at others it seems to get clearer. i am so confused about who i am now. hmmm but i guess as i grow, the experiences accumulated have made me more mature and to think about things in different perspectives. maybe thats why i am feeling so confused and schitzo? ahh i dunno. no more brain space to think so much. maybe fate is challenging me, helping me understand myself better.

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